My crush dun care abt me.. shld i give up?? this is my msn nick for today.. lingxin said that isnt my nick very obvious? haha so what?? joyce and yanfang also similar nick as me.. joyce is "My crush's goin round and round..shd i end it? hmm.." and yf is "My crush is tied down, shld i give up?" so funny...

went for worship prac tonight..haiz tonight dun have mingwei, dun have yun yuan, dun have jieying.. so all those live in sengkang one not here.. meaning i dun have to sent anyone home.. but the most jialat thing is tat Mr A is here.. so end up need to send him to the mrt station.. juz me and him alone in the car.. so wierd..

today i keep having a thot.. a concept.. that since he dun care for me, dun love me.. watever.. even though he knew that i like him long ago.. i shld have harden my heart.. and do that to him too... so i started to block him on msn.. dun wanna talk to him anymore... and throughout the prac, i have been avoiding eye contact with him.. and give him the coldest side of me.. ignoring him... he ask me something, i will say tell u later.. like bit rude.. hai so sad.. then on the car, he was telling me that he is looking for a second hand keyboard, and ask me if i have any lo bangs.. so i juz ying chou ying chou say will look out for him.. but actually i really dun wanna talk to him...

so when i got home, as usual on my msn.. and when he came online, was thinking that i should unblock him and let him see me nick and see if he would ask me anything about my nick.. cos as usual we always learn ba guas of the church ppl from each other.. so my nick sounds like some ba guas.. haiz and as usual.. he wont talk to me.. after awhile, i feel that maybe i shld block and unblock him again, let him see my nick one more time.. and i did that in an interval of about 30 mins.. also din manage to get his attention... then in the meanwhile, i was looking through yahoo classifeds.. wat the hell i am doing??? din i say i shouldnt care so much for him.. its his keyboard wat.. y u care.. juz leave him alone.. haiz but i would juz go on searching... i am so useless..