who would have gotten a deeper shit than me...
Suddenly thot of starting to write a blog.. Y??>>> cos i got myself into a very very big shit today, and think i shld record it down.
today is the 22nd anniversary service at my church. so our youth team is suppose to present an item. the service starts at 9.30am, so we are to reach at 8.30am for the rehearsal. which means that i have to wake up at 7am cos it will take me one hr to travel to church. and so the previous night, Mr A promise he will give me a call in the morn at 715am.. and he did. after taking his call, somehow, i feel very lighthearted, full of joy and happiness.. i feels juz so wonderful to hear his voice the moment i open my eyes. I wanted to share this happiness with Joyce. so i decided to sms her. I typed: "oh.... It's so sweet to hear his voice early in e morning when i open my eyes..... He give me a morn call..... :)" itz 715 in the morn, and i guess i am only 20% awake, the worst thing came to me.... instead of searching for joyce hp, i search Mr A no, and SEND.... and i din realise it.. so i happily prepare myself for church.
he was super super late again, as usual.. despite that he gave us the morn call, he was still late for about 45 mins... then also as usual, I will suan him...
"wah.. u take wat to come? u crawl here ah?"
he replied "i take plane here hor..."
"plane?? hahah crawling plane moving at 20Km/hr is it?? hahha"
and the conversation goes on.. this is juz the normal typical conver we always had..
then during the sermon, I was staring into the air.. Mr A is sitting in juz in front of me.. and some snapshots about smsing him thingy came to my mind... i suddenly rem, cos as he is suppose to call me at 715, however, its already 718, he still haven call... so i was about to send him "oei.. have u wake up..." but when i am sending, he called.. so the msg sending failed.. then after that call, i wrote the happy msg.. and i suddenly rem, at that moment, all i can think of is that the prev sms din get thr.. so muz send one more time.. without thinking what sms i am ACTUALLY SENDING... and thus i send to Mr A... DIE....
thinking that all these muz be my dream.. muz be my illusions... I checked my hp sent msg folder... aarrrrgghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really sent to him!!!!!!! this is sooooooo pei seh!!!! my heart suddenly pumps very fast.. and my hands turn cold immediately.. i look at him, and i wanted to cry... have been crushing on him for more than a yr.. and so many times i wanted to confess but was held back... and now, without even the least mental preparation, i gave myself away..........
my mind is in a whirl.. dunno what to do.. how am i going to face him?? and the whole morn i muz be a silly gal talking to him.. wonder whats on his mind when talking to me!! arrrrgghhh!!!! the first thing i do is to msg joyce and tell her this tragedy.. hai but this gal seems to be pigging tat time... and finally, i feel i am getting out of control.. i decide tat i shld leave my seat.. and so at the fu tang i saw Roy.. , Mr A's best friend in church... and i went to confide in him.. then after that xinci saw me having a very "sleepy" look.. and ask if i am very sleepy.. and i told her i am very VEX!! and so i told her too, as she all along have been my consultant about matters bet me and Mr A.. well.. both of them plus joyce advise me not to dwelt with it anymore and juz treat it as if nothing have happen.. and xinci even said that she think Mr A shld not be affected too much by it cos its not that he dunno i like him.. ??!!!!! wtf.. he all along knows i like him..and now i am making myself a clown..
hai... but since everyone tell me not to clarify with Mr A regarding this matter.. i shall heed their advice... but my whole day is in darkness.. my hands are icy the whole day.. even under the hot sun........ wonder what will happen to me later when i meet him online.. pray hard
*conclusion for the day: DUN ever send sms when u wake up.......
today is the 22nd anniversary service at my church. so our youth team is suppose to present an item. the service starts at 9.30am, so we are to reach at 8.30am for the rehearsal. which means that i have to wake up at 7am cos it will take me one hr to travel to church. and so the previous night, Mr A promise he will give me a call in the morn at 715am.. and he did. after taking his call, somehow, i feel very lighthearted, full of joy and happiness.. i feels juz so wonderful to hear his voice the moment i open my eyes. I wanted to share this happiness with Joyce. so i decided to sms her. I typed: "oh.... It's so sweet to hear his voice early in e morning when i open my eyes..... He give me a morn call..... :)" itz 715 in the morn, and i guess i am only 20% awake, the worst thing came to me.... instead of searching for joyce hp, i search Mr A no, and SEND.... and i din realise it.. so i happily prepare myself for church.
he was super super late again, as usual.. despite that he gave us the morn call, he was still late for about 45 mins... then also as usual, I will suan him...
"wah.. u take wat to come? u crawl here ah?"
he replied "i take plane here hor..."
"plane?? hahah crawling plane moving at 20Km/hr is it?? hahha"
and the conversation goes on.. this is juz the normal typical conver we always had..
then during the sermon, I was staring into the air.. Mr A is sitting in juz in front of me.. and some snapshots about smsing him thingy came to my mind... i suddenly rem, cos as he is suppose to call me at 715, however, its already 718, he still haven call... so i was about to send him "oei.. have u wake up..." but when i am sending, he called.. so the msg sending failed.. then after that call, i wrote the happy msg.. and i suddenly rem, at that moment, all i can think of is that the prev sms din get thr.. so muz send one more time.. without thinking what sms i am ACTUALLY SENDING... and thus i send to Mr A... DIE....
thinking that all these muz be my dream.. muz be my illusions... I checked my hp sent msg folder... aarrrrgghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really sent to him!!!!!!! this is sooooooo pei seh!!!! my heart suddenly pumps very fast.. and my hands turn cold immediately.. i look at him, and i wanted to cry... have been crushing on him for more than a yr.. and so many times i wanted to confess but was held back... and now, without even the least mental preparation, i gave myself away..........
my mind is in a whirl.. dunno what to do.. how am i going to face him?? and the whole morn i muz be a silly gal talking to him.. wonder whats on his mind when talking to me!! arrrrgghhh!!!! the first thing i do is to msg joyce and tell her this tragedy.. hai but this gal seems to be pigging tat time... and finally, i feel i am getting out of control.. i decide tat i shld leave my seat.. and so at the fu tang i saw Roy.. , Mr A's best friend in church... and i went to confide in him.. then after that xinci saw me having a very "sleepy" look.. and ask if i am very sleepy.. and i told her i am very VEX!! and so i told her too, as she all along have been my consultant about matters bet me and Mr A.. well.. both of them plus joyce advise me not to dwelt with it anymore and juz treat it as if nothing have happen.. and xinci even said that she think Mr A shld not be affected too much by it cos its not that he dunno i like him.. ??!!!!! wtf.. he all along knows i like him..and now i am making myself a clown..
hai... but since everyone tell me not to clarify with Mr A regarding this matter.. i shall heed their advice... but my whole day is in darkness.. my hands are icy the whole day.. even under the hot sun........ wonder what will happen to me later when i meet him online.. pray hard
*conclusion for the day: DUN ever send sms when u wake up.......
