beyond sadness........

beyond tears........

everybody's telling me life still has to go on......

i guess now i am feeling better compared to yesterday and this morning.

however, i was sadder than what i expected myself to be.

maybe i am lag. which i always was.

huijuan told me that they were holding each other. in a way its comforting cos we know that they were at peace then....

i guess the death really has too big an impact on me.

on one hand, i was glad for them.

they went off together.

with no kids..

and they know where their souls are heading.

and they had left with us good examples and good memories as what our pastor had shared with us today.

and it really wakes me up.

你的灵魂有被拯救吗？
当你死的时候，你清楚知道你的灵魂会被拯救吗？

this is what my mum has made me ponder about....

as for myself,

this death realli tells me:

our days on earth are numbered.
life can be very brittle.
i want to be like yanru. using my numbered days on earth, impact the persons that i want to impact. just like how she had impacted me.

everybody's days are numbered. we will leave this place. some earlier, some later.
dear friend who is reading this......
do you know where your soul is heading to when you die?

this incident really make me feel that i wanna save as many souls as i can...

the friends around me....
my dar.......
my dearest friend of all.......

oh Lord, pls grant me the wisdom and open our hearts....











on another note.......

i have been procrastinating to write this......

oh well... i dunno how shud i put it.......

but.....

i guess i just dun like the feeling of "cognitive dissonance"....

since its not that i forgot or wat.....

well.......

** HaPpY BiRtHdaY yAnfAng **