school is going into week 3. and as what i expected, school is not starting well for me. due to the various problems i have before sch starts, I have been worrying abt starting school way before 22nd aug. and my dearest friend keep reminding me that things wont turn out as bad. but still, i think things turn out even worse than what i expected.
tones of work is not as bad as what problems that interpersonal conflicts can bring to me.
and without me realizing, I found that I obtained myself the membership to the group of unwanted group mates.
Its always normal that some people just dun work well with some people. And i understand and i remember the bad days that we work together. but now whats bothering me is not y YOU dun want me to be ur group. but is y NOBODY is asking me to be in their group.
am i really such a bad project mate? am i really such a bad person to work with? my best friend keep telling me not to think of the bad sides so much and think more of the good sides. but under now this circumstances, i cant help myself to think that i not really do belong to the unwanted group mates group. and to me, its really an insult to belong to that group.
its true that in some proj, i really dun do well. but its not that i want it. but its just that i do not know what i can do. and i know how different people's expectations can be. and u said u CRIED. so does that mean that i LAUGHED then? is it really so fun and comfortable to a person when she sees that everything she did is shit and dunno what else can she contribute? and u think its so fun that a project mate is seeing other project mates are doing things which herself is not capable of doing? and so u said u believe in karma. so everytime u cried, u are cursing the other party will cry one day as well. congrats. ur curse is working.
well seriously, I do not know whats going on inside me but yet the facts tells me that the problem lies with me. and yet the saddest thing is that i got nobody who can/willing to advise me on whats wrong with me and share and work with me. so now what else can i do? soul searching and... still soul searching.. and start telling myself that I shall do projects with the wierdest pple. since i am one of them.
and now this is only the third week. when is week 14 coming?
tones of work is not as bad as what problems that interpersonal conflicts can bring to me.
and without me realizing, I found that I obtained myself the membership to the group of unwanted group mates.
Its always normal that some people just dun work well with some people. And i understand and i remember the bad days that we work together. but now whats bothering me is not y YOU dun want me to be ur group. but is y NOBODY is asking me to be in their group.
am i really such a bad project mate? am i really such a bad person to work with? my best friend keep telling me not to think of the bad sides so much and think more of the good sides. but under now this circumstances, i cant help myself to think that i not really do belong to the unwanted group mates group. and to me, its really an insult to belong to that group.
its true that in some proj, i really dun do well. but its not that i want it. but its just that i do not know what i can do. and i know how different people's expectations can be. and u said u CRIED. so does that mean that i LAUGHED then? is it really so fun and comfortable to a person when she sees that everything she did is shit and dunno what else can she contribute? and u think its so fun that a project mate is seeing other project mates are doing things which herself is not capable of doing? and so u said u believe in karma. so everytime u cried, u are cursing the other party will cry one day as well. congrats. ur curse is working.
well seriously, I do not know whats going on inside me but yet the facts tells me that the problem lies with me. and yet the saddest thing is that i got nobody who can/willing to advise me on whats wrong with me and share and work with me. so now what else can i do? soul searching and... still soul searching.. and start telling myself that I shall do projects with the wierdest pple. since i am one of them.
and now this is only the third week. when is week 14 coming?
