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Monday, December 20, 2004

people are missing me

posted by frances_sha @ 4:29 AM  
hey. people are missing me.. and pester me to blog. but all dears, so sorry i was damn tired these days.. like last week, except for mon, i need to go to church everyday for prac for xmas items. meaning tues, wed, thurs, fri, sat(one of the event date), sun(gg for service, so not counted la.. haha)... and some of the days we will even prac till 10.45 and i will reach home near 12am.. haiz..

well.. so now u know y i forsake my blog for so many days liao?? but tired is just one of the reasons.. as usual.. church politics can make me feel sian and helpless also.. 2 events i performing, both got church politics problem.

as usual, our singing are criticised.. and YY couldnt take it... and starting to get pissed... and in the end she slammed her file and said that she is not singing liao and started crying... and the same goes to our pianst, kz... then me and yimei are like so dunno what to do... sometimes i cant understand y some pple can take things so seriously.. but maybe tats bcos she is YY.. her character cant help it.. however glad to see that her new bf alvin is realli good to her.. can let her scold anything she wanted.. and nv rebut at her.. and can even console her.. haha.. which we can nv find these kind of attributes from 'the prev alvin'(anyway, dun get confused, its juz that her prev and present bf are both called alvins)..

then again for Ben.. haha got to confirm that he is act quite sensitive also. yimei ask him to sing softer cos he sing v loud. well.. he interpreted it as 'yimei say my singing sucks'... wats wrong with guys nowadays man.... but i told yimei that many times during our normal service practice, ben could play a lot of things on the guitar.. but everytime during the actual service, he nv play at all.. and juz anyhow played.. so i told her.. now he sing so loud rite.. maybe actual day he dun sing at all... haha gotcha.. he realli almost pang sei bryan.. and like only bryan is the only male voices.. so in the end pple commented that gals voice are too strong so theres too much trebble.. so the thing become quite sharp...

however from all these conflicts, i give thanks to God. give thanks that He put junmin as our leader.. and i realli see how God lead him and us thr all these practices and i learn from him as i see how each time he can resolve the conflicts, how he depended on God each time. i think theres so much for me to learn from him as being a leader.

then for the prac with the church choir which we are performing on 24thdec... haha also not v nice experience. as we, as the young and unprofessional.. one who nv been thr the formal classes of choir singing.... we are singing with the professional uncles and aunties from the choir who might have even started singing before we are borned... so the first 'comments' we heard is "haiyo.. they are singing with 'kid's voice'.. how to blend with them??" this is quite hurting to hear when we go for prac for the first time. then after abt 3 practices, we are finally given "extra lessons" by the instructor. so we are taught to sing in a way which "we should not focus too much on the lyrics" cos at youth service, the songs we usually sing like pop songs with more focus on what lyrics u r singing. in other words, the yao zi must be clear. now we are told that our this characteristic is clashing with the choir and we should not focus so much on the lyrics. so we are taught to sing certain words 'unproperly'.. so jia so fake.. so unnatural. then when me and yimei are pracising ourselves, i find that in the end, instead that we should NOT be focusing so much on the accurateness of our lyrics pronounciation, however we end up focus so much to get the fake and unnatural way of singing out the lyrics. Then the third critisization is that whenever someone sing a wrong note, the choir appear to look at us. and we heard "cannot everytime sing by feelings one. muz go according to score".. ok this point although i admit its true that we must follow, but i believe that its not always us making the mistakes.. in fact the mistake part is the most highest part where all of us cant reach.. so obviously its not us making the mistakes.

haiz. how come it realli seems that i am bloggin all the dark sides of my church haha... well dun get the illusions tat my church is dark ok.. but indeed i would say that my church is both warm and cold... mm however at least throughout these practices, i got to know yimei better. she is such a nice lady.. haha i admit that i heard too much rumours abt her that she is suck up, diff to work with.. haha. but in fact i dun think she is. she is a nice sister that can juz talk abt anything. and anybody. so she can talk to any age group. so powerful. great comm skills. and i am glad that we did share similar point of view on all things.. well, this is a wonderful start with her.

ok nv know that i blogged so much today. think i miss my blog quite a lot. so i gonna sleep liaoz.


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